Today for breakfast I had a tuna sandwich which was really good. For my first break I had some mixed nuts (no not those kind although I could use it), then for lunch I eat the quiche that I froze from Saturday it warmed up very good and tasted even better and I got 8 more pieces to eat later.
So while on lunch I realized I wanted something out of the vending machine but I really didn't I was actually okay and not hungry. But let me show you how the small lunchroom at work is setup. That's my red lunchbag
Its setup to make you fail to watch TV you would be watching the vending machine trying to decide how to fit whatever I want in my stomach.
There is a exercise room at work with machines to work out with So I was thinking that maybe I could use part of my lunch to work out my upper arms and back something I can do without much sweat. So I am going to make this work and it will help my use some of my one hour lunch break instead of talking about work.
So lately money has been tight and its been hard to come up with something healthy and filling to eat for me and 2 boys that are over 6 feet tall. I have been doing it and its been going pretty good we eat ever night. Of all the things I taught them like cleaning, being helpful, washing clothes, taking out garbage and a host of many things other things, eating is the only thing they do without being asked several times and with no back talk and they don't leave a mess.
Story
Yesterday, i didn't eat much I did a lot of reflecting. Reflecting on my life and the direction that I want to go in. I started to eat again but realize that instead of actually eating I thought it thru and decided that eating the rest of the chips in the bag with the tub philly cream cheese wouldn't help me get thru this time.
As I looked in the mirror I saw my mother and the pain and struggle of trying to figure out who she was as a person and not a mom; a wife (well I'm not worried about that right now), a sister or a friend. I saw how many times my mother use to cut her hair and then let it grow back to only cut it again and then wear it in a ponytail for months. As everybody know I always cut my hair and color it and let it grow then to only cut, color and let grow again. Well this time I saw myself and realized I have been doing this because the person I saw in the mirror didn't reflect the person I wanted to be . This time I'm keeping my hair and working on me and not the outside but on the inside. So I ate a small dinner of nothing much some leftover and drank a Pepsi. Okay, okay it was a really bad day!!!
Lesson
One day the person on this inside will come out and its okay to take the time to get to know her. Hello my name is LaTruette, Oh nice to meet you my name is LaTruette.
