OK so yesterday I did not exercise but I tried to eat better and I didn't have a Pepsi. Good for me I'm going to celebrate the little accomplishments. You know they say that soda cause a lot of weight gain. So today after work I spent 20 minutes on the treadmill that is in my living room /exercise room. There was a time when I actually had a basement with all kinds of exercise equipment that I didn't use. Now I want to use it and don't have the room. I really see how you should appreciate the things you have acquired.
Today I ate oatmeal for breakfast and on my breaks I had a orange and apple and some nuts. Then for lunch I had rice with green beans and beef a Afrocentric twist on a Chinese dish. Now tonight I cooking egg foo yung homemade. I'll send the recipe and take pictures. I'm also going to make a quiche for the first time and fill it with veggies and some cheese not low fat but not a lot either. Guess what no Pepsi today either 2 days in a row I did it.
So one day as I was leaving for work and my, now estranged, husband stated you really look good in your clothes... as I turned around (with the head snap!!!!) about to tear into him... and just then I realized what he was saying. So I kept the thought to myself, was he saying I don't look good without clothes. After that it made me feel really self conscience. So when I got to work that day I had a great big veggie omelet for breakfast and a cheeseburger and fries and Pepsi for lunch and I thought to myself he got a lot of nerve. Why do guys want to bring home ribtips, french fries, full course breakfast from Dennys, gyros, philly cheese steaks at 2 and 3 o'clock in the morning want you to eat with them and then go to sleep and still look like Beyonce.....
Give me a fucking break that ain't happening.
Then when I started to say no thank you and you want to get offended how can I win for losing. Oh yeah I'm not losing weight.
So lesson learned years later is that I have to look good for myself because doing it for others won't work.. It only made me depressed and I ate more. So now if I feel like I want to rub my belly and be happy I will or grab the fat on my back and jiggle it I will. I gotta be happy with me. I gotta take care of myself for me. I gotta look good for me. So right now its all about ME. And I think I look pretty good!!!
